Excerpt from Chapter Three

Manstein – THE INNER GENIUS WITHIN US ALL by Jason Hughes

Excerpt from Chapter Three:

Ineeded to deal with my struggles around loss and internal feelings, callings,
and strife, yet I did not know where to even begin dealing with it
all. I truly felt as if I had grieved the loss of Kubby to the best of my ability up
to this point. I didn’t know how to gain perspective and turn this loss and whole
event into something positive before I learned more about what was happening
internally.

One place I did NOT turn to was God. I did not know what God was,
except for something outside of me that so many others went to worship on a
Sunday, in fancy clothes and at a church. I was not one of those people, and I
was thankful my parents did not push organized religion on me in my early
years.

I may have experienced a powerful moment with my therapist in high
school regarding going forward with my life and living for my dreams, but this
was all overshadowed by the pressures and limited knowledge I had going into
college. As much as I returned to fitting in, going through the motions, and
identifying with myself as just a freshmen at Green Mountain College, the
hurt inside continued to grow.